Project Pinterest

What's on my mind tonight... so I have this problem where when I get result excited about something like a new craft project or idea it completely consumes my very being to the point where sleep completely evades me. The Most recent incident happened about a week ago. I was lying in bed perusing the DIY and crafts page on Pinterest (Rookie mistake) and it made my mind start to hum. I formed this grand plan to do so many thing like paint the cabinets in the bathroom and apply at ace for a part time job because I actually miss working, especially with paint. Then I'm going to make these totes cute shoes out of sweaters from DI. Then I started to ponder about how I could make or new living arrangement more enjoyable since we lack space. I had ideas for bathroom organizers, closet space savors, jewelry displays, repurposed bedside tables made from bar stools and so much more... So I would lie in bed with my mind racing and pinning things on Pinterest until the wee hours of the morning and then spend the day in a zombie like trance due to my self imposed exhaustion. Night time is one of my few times that I get to be alone now since my little boy came into the world almost ten months ago. Anyway so I've decided to try to actually make some of the projects that I got so excited about since I know how the resources to do so. Time is still a factor since my baby Daniel Dewey is my entire life now but I think I can manage it :) maybe I'll post about my projects add I complete them :) and maybe I won't, who really knows at this point am I right? Its not like I'm very consistent with this whole blogging thing.

PROJECT PINTEREST..... GO!

Paint Store Problems

Ok. There are some things that just NEED to be said about what it's like working at a paint store

*Warning: The following blog post has been flagged because the content is full of Alexie venting her frustrations about work and may be considered annoying to some viewers ;)

1. Working with only boys kinda sucks horribly. I am the only girl at my store with five other guys. So basically no one who comes in trusts my opinion or doesn't think i know what I'm talking about.

2. The guys I work with curse like sailors!

3. People are dumb: trying to explain stuff to people about paint or stain sucks when they think they know what they're talking about. Ya that old phrase" the customer is always right", FALSE.

4. People who come in five minutes to closing are mean.Especially on a Monday or Saturday.

5. People need to realize that the world does not revolve around them, if I have four paint matches already lined up, I am not going to drop everyone else's stuff just because you procrastinated until a few hours before you needed this paint. A good rule of thumb is that it takes about one hour per person per match. So if there are four matches ahead of you, you will not be receiving your paint in an hour. Bring in your samples a day before you actual need it please.

One of the guys I work with is driving me up a wall lately about his complaints about his significant other. He's always complaining to me and then we she comes in to see him, HE IS SO RUDE TO HER AND COMPLAINS ABOUT THE MOST RIDICULOUS THINGS.
It really makes me appreciate how much I love my husband and that we don't make our little fights public.

85. I may not look like it but I can easily load your paint into you're truck. I've been doing this for over a year and I have loaded, delivered, and unloaded hundreds of buckets of paint. I think i can handle taking your three 5 gallon buckets to you're truck and putting them in the back. Its so funny hearing how surprised some painters are when I throw their paint into their truck. I GOT THIS PEOPLE! Lol it's just funny I guess. Or sexist.  Idk: )

All in all my job is pretty cool, you know all those homes in the parade of homes that just ended?  Ya I helped make the paint on AT LEAST HALF of those houses. Like that 2.7 million dollar home? Ya that's all me BABEH!

Resolu... wait what am I talking about?

New year. Meh. I was planning on the world ending last month so I didn't really care what happened this year...

Alright calm down I'm only joking ;)

This year along with a better body and more money I want focus. I have no direction in life right now. I just live day by day. Where will I be in ten years? Or five? Or even one? Lets see... ten Years ago.. shoot I was only eleven I can't remember that far back. 

Am I where I want to be? Am I at least on my way there? I don't know because I don't really know where I'm going. Down the rabbit hole I fall I guess to talk to some creepy cat. How will I know when I get there if I don't know where I want to go?

Can you see why I need focus? This blog alone is highly lacking in focus!

Well i guess the only way to achieve some focus is to set some goals for where I want to be and what I want to be doing right?

Well I want to lose weight of course. I figure with the added incentive of the competition I'm starting with my sister it will help me at least lose something.  The only problem is that my other goal is to have a baby. I'd rather have the baby than sixty bucks any day.

I realize the baby goal is only somewhat in my control so I guess it's more of a wish than a goal...

Its hard for me to think of other realistic goals because my wishes, goals, and desires  don't just affect me. Like how I wish I could become a vet tech... that's a goal I've had for a long time but now it may be to late because I have to think about my husband first. We need ti be where he can get his schooling done and I'll probably have to work while he's in school. So going back to school is out.

So it's not just me who needs focus. Its us.

How can I set goals without Joseph knowing where he wants to be, Or how long we'll stay here, or what he wants to be?

I can't can I...

I guess I'll set the goals that I can and just keep living day after day.

Now I'm sleepy. But hey to the two people who read this if you have any advice let me know.

In Sickness and in Health

So this has pretty much been a poopy weekend. I go to bed last night with a swollen painful eye that Joe and I have no clue how it happened! Then I wake up around four with a really upset tummy. Spend a good (or should i say bad) hour throwing up.
Thankfully my saint of a husband heard me and was right there with me to hold my hair back. Just kidding he didn't hold my hair back but he did get me some water and medicine and took care of Rush for me this morning so I could rest.
    
    He honestly is the best and I couldn't survive without him. He makes me feel loved and special and I know I'll always be cared for.
Being sick kinda sucks. I don't feel like I get really sick a lot or maybe I just ignore it and hope it goes away.
     I remember one time earlier this year where I got very sick at work. It was at kwal and Chris (my old coworker) and I were by ourselves and I was so light headed I couldn't stand for more than a minute without needing to sit down. So every couple of minutes I'd go to the restroom to try to collect myself. Then I was sitting on a bench at the front listening to Chris talk to a customer. Then everything went fuzzy and I couldn't hear anymore. Joseph tells me that's like tunnel vision or something and it happens when you're close to passing out O_o that's kinda scary! Well then the boss got there and sent me home.  It sucked. But once again Joseph was right by my side to care for me :) 

Well im feeling much better now, except for my still swollen eye. So I'm pitting on my pajamas and heading to the parents house for dinner and socializing with my love. He's mine and I know we'll be together In Sickness and in Health, for time and all eternity. <3

Wandering and Wondering

I feel like I need to write but I dont know why or what I'm supposed to write about. I feel lost lately. I'm happy, don't get me wrong, but I just feel so lost at times about what the future holds for me. It's so weird to think how different my life turned out from where it was headed.

Lost in a sea of memories
Struggling to swim to land
This isn't where I thought I'd be
This isn't what I planned
The waves crash around me as I reach out for your hand
You lift me from my sadness
You help me reach the sand
You show me that where I've been
Doesn't define who i have to be
You love me some easily
You're there to help me see
The future may be full of doubt, uncertainty and fear.
But I know that it will all work out if I have you always near

So I guess even though I continue know what the future has in store for us, I do know that as long as I have Joseph with me everything will turn out in the end.

Facing Forward

     These past months have been great. My associates degree is completed, we moved into a new apartment, I found a good job and I finally fulfilled my life long dream of having my own puppy :) his cuteness helps to make up for the constant pooping, peeing, crying and biting that happen on a regular basis. Its a challenge, and one that Joe wasn't too keen on taking on. But even after his initial coolness and indifference towards our puppy named Rush, he seems to be warming up to the little guy and is very good about helping me in the mornings when my brain isn't ready to cope with a whining puppy.
     Work is work, I don't hate it but its not my dream.  I feel I've moved up in the kwal world these last couple months and I do enjoy the hands on aspect of making paint but at the same time it can most definitely be trying at times dealing with men who either don't take me seriously as the only girl there, or are just crass and creepy. Although flattering, I very much dislike the many times I've been asked out by Hispanic painters that hardly speak English. The best one would have been the time I was hit on in front of my boss. Turns out the Hispanic guy who hit on my was married and has a history with starting fights with either employees... awesome.... needless to say but my boss has discouraged this man from coming in.
     As i mentioned, I am the only girl who works at this Kwal which isn't fun. Its a job though and it pays well.  But OHMYGOSH some of the other people are so irritating!! I consider myself fairly soft spoken but I've come very close to telling some of these people off, one person is just rude and offensive and can't stand the fact that I have seniority and much much much more knowledge and experience over him (thank you Buck's Ace Hardware)  he's mouthy to me and it drives me up a wall! Ugh but what's worse is that he's not even the worse one! Another employee is much nicer to me but is the worst worked I've ever seen! He has the worth ethic of a toddler! Sometimes he does good but other times it takes him three times as long to accomplish the easiest if tasks! he's also very arrogant and a terrible mooch! VENT VENT VENT VENT!!!

Sigh

I just wish I would have had the chance to get my schooling done to become a vet tech. That's my true dream job. But alas, it doesn't like that dream Will ever be a reality due to the fact that Joe still has mountains school finish and I want to start having babies! Maybe someday.....
    
     I've been looking to the past a lot recently. Whether it be my past goals, friends, lifestyle, or my past self. I just feel like I need to look forward and plan more fervently for the future I want instead of looking back at the life I once led. I need to stop dwelling on what could have been and start facing the facts, facing myself, and Facing Forward

Our trip to Insanity!!

Ugh, I'm out of shape! Granted, the only time I was ever actually in good shape was when I played volleyball as a freshman in high school. I've never been "fat" but I just didn't have good muscle tone or anything. Sadly I have noticed that I am getting a little chubbier and after finally weighing myself, I found it to be true :( In High School I weighed around 130 and was ok with that. It was a healthy weight for a girl my height and considering I didn't do anything to keep my weight in control I was pretty lucky. But, alas, the metabolism of that carefree high school gal is fading and I recently weighed myself at 147 :'( So even though I'm still within the healthy weight range I want to slim down and tone up! So I contemplated my options... I could go running but I am deeply embarrassed by my inability to run farther than a half mile :) so Joseph and I decided we would try the Insanity workout dvd set that we had seen online! I was and still am so super excited!! We are going to look so awesome 58 days from now :) 

Insanity is kicking our butt though. It's only been two days and I'm more sore than I think I've ever been my whole life! Ok maybe that's an lie but still IT HURTS! The first day of the program was a fit test, which I utterly failed at. However, it didn't make me sore which made me hopeful. Then my hopes were dashed by the second day. OHMYGOSH! It is some pretty intense stuff! Needless to say that both my husband and I are sore but happy and definitely planning on seeing this thing through to the end! Wish me luck!