In Sickness and in Health

So this has pretty much been a poopy weekend. I go to bed last night with a swollen painful eye that Joe and I have no clue how it happened! Then I wake up around four with a really upset tummy. Spend a good (or should i say bad) hour throwing up.
Thankfully my saint of a husband heard me and was right there with me to hold my hair back. Just kidding he didn't hold my hair back but he did get me some water and medicine and took care of Rush for me this morning so I could rest.
    
    He honestly is the best and I couldn't survive without him. He makes me feel loved and special and I know I'll always be cared for.
Being sick kinda sucks. I don't feel like I get really sick a lot or maybe I just ignore it and hope it goes away.
     I remember one time earlier this year where I got very sick at work. It was at kwal and Chris (my old coworker) and I were by ourselves and I was so light headed I couldn't stand for more than a minute without needing to sit down. So every couple of minutes I'd go to the restroom to try to collect myself. Then I was sitting on a bench at the front listening to Chris talk to a customer. Then everything went fuzzy and I couldn't hear anymore. Joseph tells me that's like tunnel vision or something and it happens when you're close to passing out O_o that's kinda scary! Well then the boss got there and sent me home.  It sucked. But once again Joseph was right by my side to care for me :) 

Well im feeling much better now, except for my still swollen eye. So I'm pitting on my pajamas and heading to the parents house for dinner and socializing with my love. He's mine and I know we'll be together In Sickness and in Health, for time and all eternity. <3

Wandering and Wondering

I feel like I need to write but I dont know why or what I'm supposed to write about. I feel lost lately. I'm happy, don't get me wrong, but I just feel so lost at times about what the future holds for me. It's so weird to think how different my life turned out from where it was headed.

Lost in a sea of memories
Struggling to swim to land
This isn't where I thought I'd be
This isn't what I planned
The waves crash around me as I reach out for your hand
You lift me from my sadness
You help me reach the sand
You show me that where I've been
Doesn't define who i have to be
You love me some easily
You're there to help me see
The future may be full of doubt, uncertainty and fear.
But I know that it will all work out if I have you always near

So I guess even though I continue know what the future has in store for us, I do know that as long as I have Joseph with me everything will turn out in the end.

Facing Forward

     These past months have been great. My associates degree is completed, we moved into a new apartment, I found a good job and I finally fulfilled my life long dream of having my own puppy :) his cuteness helps to make up for the constant pooping, peeing, crying and biting that happen on a regular basis. Its a challenge, and one that Joe wasn't too keen on taking on. But even after his initial coolness and indifference towards our puppy named Rush, he seems to be warming up to the little guy and is very good about helping me in the mornings when my brain isn't ready to cope with a whining puppy.
     Work is work, I don't hate it but its not my dream.  I feel I've moved up in the kwal world these last couple months and I do enjoy the hands on aspect of making paint but at the same time it can most definitely be trying at times dealing with men who either don't take me seriously as the only girl there, or are just crass and creepy. Although flattering, I very much dislike the many times I've been asked out by Hispanic painters that hardly speak English. The best one would have been the time I was hit on in front of my boss. Turns out the Hispanic guy who hit on my was married and has a history with starting fights with either employees... awesome.... needless to say but my boss has discouraged this man from coming in.
     As i mentioned, I am the only girl who works at this Kwal which isn't fun. Its a job though and it pays well.  But OHMYGOSH some of the other people are so irritating!! I consider myself fairly soft spoken but I've come very close to telling some of these people off, one person is just rude and offensive and can't stand the fact that I have seniority and much much much more knowledge and experience over him (thank you Buck's Ace Hardware)  he's mouthy to me and it drives me up a wall! Ugh but what's worse is that he's not even the worse one! Another employee is much nicer to me but is the worst worked I've ever seen! He has the worth ethic of a toddler! Sometimes he does good but other times it takes him three times as long to accomplish the easiest if tasks! he's also very arrogant and a terrible mooch! VENT VENT VENT VENT!!!

Sigh

I just wish I would have had the chance to get my schooling done to become a vet tech. That's my true dream job. But alas, it doesn't like that dream Will ever be a reality due to the fact that Joe still has mountains school finish and I want to start having babies! Maybe someday.....
    
     I've been looking to the past a lot recently. Whether it be my past goals, friends, lifestyle, or my past self. I just feel like I need to look forward and plan more fervently for the future I want instead of looking back at the life I once led. I need to stop dwelling on what could have been and start facing the facts, facing myself, and Facing Forward

Our trip to Insanity!!

Ugh, I'm out of shape! Granted, the only time I was ever actually in good shape was when I played volleyball as a freshman in high school. I've never been "fat" but I just didn't have good muscle tone or anything. Sadly I have noticed that I am getting a little chubbier and after finally weighing myself, I found it to be true :( In High School I weighed around 130 and was ok with that. It was a healthy weight for a girl my height and considering I didn't do anything to keep my weight in control I was pretty lucky. But, alas, the metabolism of that carefree high school gal is fading and I recently weighed myself at 147 :'( So even though I'm still within the healthy weight range I want to slim down and tone up! So I contemplated my options... I could go running but I am deeply embarrassed by my inability to run farther than a half mile :) so Joseph and I decided we would try the Insanity workout dvd set that we had seen online! I was and still am so super excited!! We are going to look so awesome 58 days from now :) 

Insanity is kicking our butt though. It's only been two days and I'm more sore than I think I've ever been my whole life! Ok maybe that's an lie but still IT HURTS! The first day of the program was a fit test, which I utterly failed at. However, it didn't make me sore which made me hopeful. Then my hopes were dashed by the second day. OHMYGOSH! It is some pretty intense stuff! Needless to say that both my husband and I are sore but happy and definitely planning on seeing this thing through to the end! Wish me luck!